I have an audition on Friday.
I'm scared out of my mind. It's the first audition since my confidence was shattered a few months ago in what can only be called the most ridiculous, fraudulent series of events that ever surrounded the casting of a play. Suddenly I am second guessing all of my instincts. I feel like I made some sort of mistake in that whole process, but it's hard to learn from a mistake when you don't even know what it was.
The show is called Damn Yankees. It's a musical from the 50's about baseball and a man who sells his soul to the devil in order to make his team win the World Series. The whole thing is rather campy and corny, but it has a certain charm as well. It's wrapped in the honesty and innocence of a bygone era - the seduction scene is extremely tame compared to today's lewd standards - and you can't help falling in love with it.
The risk of failure grows according to the amount of passion you have invested. The thought of 'striking out' on Friday terrifies me because I want it more than anything. Being onstage makes me feel like I'm living in TechniColor - all my senses are heightened, defined, expanded. The lights come on and instead of stage fright and an urge to flee, I feel utter confidence and a sense of "This is why I was born".
This passion is the reason I'm so afraid; but it's also the reason that I must keep trying. I must continue to take chances, because even a mere chance to be onstage is better than being in the audience forever.
11.04.2009
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Charisa, you didn't make a mistake months ago, so there is nothing to learn from it! We blame ourselves when things don't work out...when all along it wasn't about us.
I got fired a few days ago—and I was the company's star employee. I wish I had the time and space to tell you how the boss is holding his tail between his legs in front of all the employees who have contacted me to tell me how much they are going to miss me.
You know who you are! Take ALL THAT YOU ARE to that audition and show them ALL YOU'VE GOT! Don't let fear stand in the way of you making the show OUTSTANDING! Go to that audition determined to make the performance shine with all that you are! The play with suck without you! YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE CAPABLE OF! GO GET 'EM!
"The most exciting place to discover talent is in yourself!” Ashleigh Brilliant.
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